LoVeLyDoLlY

FLU!!!!!!

2006-09-02T22:35:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!!!The "walking disease" has passed on her cold to me!!!!The autumn is definitely here andof coz, people will start getting all these "autumn sickness" and now am one of them!!!hehehe Now my whole family is having a cold!!!but I guess it's cool....I guess it prepares us from the coldness, the laziness in the autumn...

Yippee!!!My birthday is coming soon and I will be 19!!!Yesh, the big 19...well, not really looking forward to this day but you noe, juz trying to put on a happy face =) And besides, life is too short to be mourning over wats done so peepz out there who r depress, sad, broken-hearted or watever the heck it is, juz dun waste your time on doing NUTHING!!!!Do sumthing about ur life when u have the opputunity to do it, dun juz sit around coz then nuthing will be done!!!Understand, Understood???Now tats is done so am happy tat I say it out hehehe....

Nywayz, gotta go and do my laundry now so LTRZzZz....=)

Hurt!!

2006-09-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

Stayed up all nite to watch Shakira & Christina perform and I can tell ya that it was really worth while waiting for them to perform!!=)...Especially Christina's performance, I think it was the best, she looks perfect in tat red dress and the song.....Perfection!!!!

Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

What a GREAT song, such great lyrics....went straight to my heart and I would really like to dedicate tis song to sumone special...=)

Okie dokz, have been busy with school lately but i've managed and am glad to say tat school is juz getting more and more exciting!!!Been going back and forth, to school in the afternoon and home doing sum family thingy in the morning and it's damn tiring man but it's cool, i guess :-P...You noe, I can't wait till I graduate!!!!STUDENTEN!!!!hehehe....Nywayz, am saving up now to celebrate christmas in Glasgow wit our friends....am soo excited, i can't wait and guess wat???The time I'm going to Glasgow is the SALE time!!!!SHOPPING, here I come!!!!I ma shop and shop and shop til i can't shop no more haha (exaggerate abit lah)...

I feel like calling him now but...nah, I have to stop...I dun wanna be the so-called "third leg", the mean, stealing others bf bitch hehehe...so i guess tis is it wit him...Am glad tat I got to know him, he's a great person with great thinking and most of all heart and I love him for tat, in fact, I will always love him for tat and he will always have a great, special place in my heart!!

Gotta go peepz...PEACEEEEEEEE...hehehe

Me, Myself & I!!!

2006-08-29T13:24:00.000-07:00

Hello peepz!!!Yesh, am finally back...hehehehe....I've finally decided to blog again *winkz*...Well, how r u guyz doin??Miss me??hahaha, i bet not...but it's all cool...Anywayz, am sitting here being all bored and I've got nada to do so i've decided to blog in my thoughts alil'...=)

Well well...How have life been treating ya'll?? My answer for myself will be...., NOT so very good and trust me, it's been better than this...But I guess the saying "Life's a bitch" is somehow true...not totally but partially true for me. Life is full of ups and down, and as for me...., I've been through a WHOLE lot for the past few months (trust me on that)...at times I feel like I've missed on my childhood (LoL, tat makes me sound old!!), seems like it's all going soooo very damn fast that i dun even have the time to STOP and enjoy the moment or to even really SUCK in the whole memories of that very moment!! But yea, yea, tats over and done and I can't turn back the time (tho i wish i cud.. :-P)

Anywayz, after the past few months going thru all the trouble!! I can finally take a break (tho not fully) and I can say tat I'm proud of myself coz I walked thru the rain and now my life is so much better!!I'm really thankful for my family's help when I had to go thru the rain by myself...they were there rite by my side every single time and am really grateful that my family was there for me and will alwayz be here for me =)

I guess wat I'm trying to say is that am happy where I am now and for now, all I need is basically nuthing apart from my beloved family and my very exciting school!! SImPLICITY is all I want and all I need...No strings attached...No more going crazy over silly things and No more broken hearts for me...For now, at least...And the rest is still unwritten =)

cRaZy LiFe!!!

2005-05-17T21:19:00.000-07:00

Life have been stressed up for me lately and i've been feeling down tooz...It's like problems keep coming into my mind, life and thoughts...it's growing like MUSHROOMS u noe but...things is not tat bad coz i have my cutie vanja, darling erika and sweetie nina around me...they are da only peepz giving me advices on wat i shud do and all and u noe...seriously, i dun even noe wat i would do without them...I think i would have been DEAD by now coz with all da problems i'm having....., NOONE could ever b happy with it!!!

Nyways...erika posted sum pix of us to her computer oredi and here they are!!!!*drumrollsss*

Like wat Vanja said...Our Love Is Unbreakable!!!hahah...i was being suntanned (yeah rite!!)...so tat's why u can't see me heheh...*muackz* LOVE YA'LL!!!

It's juz da three of us now...coz the camera maniac is obviously taking da pic for us!!woohooo..!!NAJSSSSSSSSSSS

Oh yea...u juz gotta LOVE gurls coz they noe how to have FUN!!!!especially us!!!

Yesh...tat's all da pix i have for today but my story ain't finish yet, honey!!!heheh...U noe wat??!!...I was sitting wit my mom n dad in da living room juz now...was watching 'Purple Rain'...It's such a sweet and sad movie but i was too AWAY!!! (in my own little world) tat i didn't really watch da film properly...*sigh* i dunno, u noe..i have too much in my mind rite now tat i can be GONE at times but i juz really hope to find da truth to everything n settle it as soon as possible coz u noe...i can't go on like this...This is not the REAL me...the REAL me is a happy-go lucky gurl who shines day n nite no matter when n where....I hope i can go back to the old me again....soon!!!

Oh gosh...SUMMER holiday is in 3 weeks or so n it's sooooo CLOSE!!!!I can't wait but at da same time, i dun want school to end for 3 fucking months man!!!Wat da fuck am i suppose to do??!!!Shit my ass at home for 3 fucking months??!! HELL NO!!!I'm gonna mish my unbreakable CREW n then i'm gonna die if i dun see them...even for one second!!!hahah....

Shit man..., i've got a damn presentation to do tomorroz n am fucking NERVOUS coz am scared i might say da wrong thing n then be GONE to my LaLa land coz of thinking too much...*shivers*...I hope my presentation goes well...am not really prepared tho but i think i can do it...Oh u noe...,next week is gonna be a HELL week...5 damn test in 5 days...in a ROW!!!...This IB programme is really gonna KILL da students u noe...TRUST ME!!!Dun ever choose this programme coz u'll get a heart attack n juz die!!hahahah....

Okie, i seriously think i need to stop now coz i see sum changes in me!!!I'm going CRAZY now!!hahaha....cya'll in awhile!!Buh bye n have fun looking at our gorgeous LOOKS!!!! LoL

gOt Da RiTe To B wRoNg..

2005-05-12T18:22:00.000-07:00

Yesh!!!!Ma anthem for da week...I wanna break free from him n juz let him go..I noe i might be doing a BIG mistake but u noe...in life, u've juz gotta make mistakes to learn from it n to make u stronger...At this point of time, i feel like i've lost everything i've gain in da past few weeks or months or watever...It feels like she's taking EVERYTHING away from me...I've lost one of my closest friend n i've also lost trust from other people juz coz of sum stupid rumours..n now, i've made up my mind to even lose him before i lose him the way i lost my closest friend coz it hurts more...I've tried to fix it but i guess i'm not so strong now n i guess i juz need rooms for my mistakes to make me much stronger...

I'm seriously confused n i'm seriously hopeless in fixing this problem...I'm falling for him but i guess i'm nuthing for him...Seriously, after today, i feel soo worthless n after SHE did wat SHE did, my heart juz tore into pieces n yes, it hurts like fuck n i'm trying my best to hide it...But for now...I've got a rite to b wrong n nobody can stop me from making my mistakes coz my mom told me once tat ur mistakes will only make u stronger...Tat's exactly wat i have to do..make myself stronger n pull thru this whole shit...

Okie....enough wit tat..i juz wanted to let out the things tat have been bothering me to sumone n this is da only place i could go to to release my pain, heartbreaks n everything...

Nywayz...am having a history test tomorroz n i can't study for it coz sumone in my class took my history book n i dun have an extra so i guess i have to talk to Lars about it n maybe do da fucking test sum other time....*smiles*...Nina is gonna put extention on her hair n i tink i ma follow her..heheh..soo cool u noe...i wanna extend my hair too but my hair is long oredi so pointless heheheh...u noe...sumtimes u juz wanna have da same things ur friend has but u can't always get ur way ok??...heheheh...

U noe....i feel like baking sumthing now..I've been wanting to bake London Almond but then i keep moving it forward n then i become lazy n u noe...heheh...NO LONDON ALMOND!!!...Ouu..u noe wat??...Erika said da sweetest thing yesterday..., she message me on msn out of a sudden n said tat if i ever needed sumone to talk to, she will alwayz be there for me...sweet rite??!!...ohhhh I LOVE HER n snakey n spiky tooz...hehe..I think i was being alil mean towards them today coz i was screaming at Nina n ignoring Vanja n Erika for a moment n guyz, am really sorrie for tat but u noe...this mess is juz hurting me n it pisses me off at da same time n i really didn't noe how to react juz now n I'm REALLY SORRIE!!!!´..*muackz*..I had fun wit ya'll in da train today heheh...missing ya'll oredi u noe!!!...miss me or not??!!...i hope so if not, i'll give each one of ya'll a smack on da head tomorroz...hehehe...*evil laughs*...I dun noe wat i'll ever do without u all in my life, u guyz r always there to lend a shoulder to cry on n u give me lotsa advice n u noe...i thank u guyz for tat..*hugz*

Okie dokie.., i ma go rest n have my time space to think bout things, coz for now, it's all soo fucking complicated n i've gotta fix it before it gets thru my heart really deep...

NeW LaYoUt!!

2005-05-10T16:23:00.000-07:00

Woohooo!!!Got maself a new layout liao...veli nice rite??...heheheh....Okie...sorrie peepz for not blogging alot...I've been busy wit school n all lah bebeh..heheh..I guess u all still waiting patiently for my cat-walk pix rite??...heheh but sorrie...this stupid Martin didn't send me da pix but dun worry it will come sooner or later coz i ma force him to send it to me okie??...*hugz*

Nywayz...,aiyoh keng kawan..I've received many many bad news sey but it's kinda personal so am not gonna share it to the whole world ya...heheh...As u guyz can notice, I've had my asthma attack for da past few days n man!!susah tau nak breathe...but now I've been resting alot so it's getting better n better...

Nuthin much really happened da past few days..It's been ma bro b'day tho n we celebrated it n u noe..my mom treated us to bubble tea!!!Ahhhh...so long oredi u noe...Finally, now i noe where to go for BUBBLE TEA!!!yipeee....but of coz, da bubble tea here is not as good as da bubble tea in Singapore lah but at least sumthing rite??...heheh...

Aiyoh...u noe, i shudn't be blogging now coz am still weak but i have to be loyal rite??...But me friendzz..today will just be a short entry coz now, me wanna go rest ah...Next entry...with lotsa, lotsa pix okie??...cannot promise lah but will try my best to post sum pix for ya..*winkz*

hahah..Love ya SneAky

2005-05-02T08:45:00.000-07:00

hahaha...okie am a LAZY BUM huh??...heheh..i noe i've not been blogging for a fucking longggg time but here i am...finally, wit nuthing to do....so...yeapz, i succeed in making my big ass sit on da computer chair heheh...Okie, i noe there's been lotsa drama eversince my latest entry but u noe...I dun care no more coz enough is enough...I'm happy wit who i'm wit now and yey, this thursday is our 1 month together!!!Wohooo...hope we'll last longer...*winkz* I still can't believe I liked him tat long....6 months is no joke n u noe...I've been waiting patiently n i'm finally getting who i want!!!!!Ahhhh...u guyz have no idea how happy i am n u noe things are like going too fast tat it scares me to death coz I'm scared to lose him...n u noe...I've been pretty unfair to my frennies huh??Dun u guyz agree??sneaky, spiky, fishy??U guyz thought i didn't notice tat rite??But i do n am really sorry for tat..Next time, i ma try to be balance n spend time wit ya'll tooz...*promise*..*n cross my heart* hehehe...

Anywayz..., I'm updating juz coz sneaky wanted me to...hehehe...Love her soo much!!!Hey, sneaky, if u're reading this entry then i think u shud noe tat I MISS YA ass woman!!!hahahah when u were away n u shud noe tat u shudn't do dat EVER again OK??!!...heheheh....GOOD....*muackz*...

Yipeee....summer holiday is juz around da corner n yes!!!!I'm still FUCKING jobless!!!wohoo....I dun even noe if tat's good news or bad news..shud i cry or jump in joy heheheh....maybe i shud do both huh??...uh huh!!!....Well....yesh, i'm crazy, loco and insane now heheh....Damn, I've got soo much to share wit ya'll n i dun even noe where to start...I've got many, many pix to show but i still haven't got those pix from my fren yet so just stay wit me n i ma bring ya'll to my 'memory lane' soon...*winkz*...

I've been having GREAT days, da past few weeks, of coz....I juz love it...my friends, my boo, my life n evrything i have...I cud never ask for more coz i noe sumone will always be here to catch my fall...*muackz*.....Ouuu..wanna noe wat i did for maybe 2 weeks ago??!!!Ahhh...I was cat-walking wit YATY!!!..Power u noe...We cat-walked for Daisy's Collection!!!Aiyoh...u guyz shud see my dress...It was simply F-A-B-O-L-O-U-S...It was short, of coz but it was HOT!!!!....n u noe...me and Yaty cat-walked together n people started clapping, da spotlights on us n all attentions was on us!!!Wohooo...am sooo HAPPY for tat...I wish i cud do it again!!!I wanna do it again!!!!...I LOVE da spotlight now n LOVE being da center of attention!!hahah not all da time tho...dun get me wrong ya..*winkz*....ouuu and a guy exchanged number wit me but u noe....I'm TAKEN!!!heheheheh....Okie, okie....i ma continue my 'memory lane' for ya'll sum other time k??Now i wanna go take a shower heheh...*shh* dun tell nyone k??...*muackz*...Love ya'll!!!Especially sneaky, spiky and fishy!!!Wohoooo...

Be patience kiez??...Pictures coming soon..My bro's comp fucking slow man...so i'll do it ltrz instead...*muackz*

nEw LiFe N nEw Me..

2005-04-17T12:46:00.000-07:00

Is tat a positive or negative title huh??heheheh...well, it's actually both...Haha...it's been a looonnnggg time since i blogged huh??..I noe...I've been a BAD blogger but u noe...lotsa things has happened to me for da past few days...both bad n good things...it made me changed alot, tho people can't see thru it all but i noe i've changed alot since da day things started to turn bad for me...

I noe tat i shud juz move on wit life coz it was all juz da past and now i noe tat i've become a sensitive gurl, a new gurl..I'm not da happy gurl i used to be coz my mind is simply fucked up now. One second i can be laughing, smiling n all dat but another second, i'll be all sad n down...It's not tat i'm trying to get attention by doing tat but it's juz tat i have lotsa things in my mind rite now tat sumtimes i juz break down n think bout tat thing n juz try to find da solution but da problem is.....wat i'm in now is juz too hard n sumtimes it makes me lost.

My energy for school is gone now..all i wanna do is skip lessons n juz hang around da school...I dunno...i'm juz sooo confused!!!I mean...this has gotta stop coz i dun wanna be like da gurl i used to be when i first started the school...I noe it's bad n at this point of time..I've been improving in school n i dun wanna be bad again...

Dun get me wrong tho peepz...heheh...Yes, bad things happened to me for da past few days but at da same time, sumthing nice, sumthing i've been waiting for a looonngg time happened to me n i'm glad about it but at da same time...i'm becoming more confused..*sigh*...I dunno...Okie...i bet u all wanna noe wat da good news is kan??Well....I've got myself a man....a man i've been waiting for ever since i started tis school...I'm sooo happy tat i've got him now but things are juz messed up now after wat happened to me...

Okie....U all must be thinking...OMG, she's a playa...wat happen to the other guy??Well, i ain't a playa but i've juz given up n i'm too weak to go on like tat..He was such a nice guy n he've done alot for me but i dun think it's juz rite since i'm here n he's there...I hope he's moved on in life n found a better gurl who can takes care of him.

Well, rite now...all i wanna do is juz get the whole shit tat have been messing wit my mind outta my mind n life...I wanna move on n work on this new relationship coz i really like my bf but not at da point of love yet but i'm slowly falling for him coz he's juz so special n i hope this is rite..

OkIe DoKiE!!!

2005-04-07T21:02:00.000-07:00

Okie...I chatted wit him juz now n yea we're still as confused as ever but then all thx to my beloved sister....she gave me advise n consoled me juz now..I noe at tis point of time we're still unstable coz we still couldn't accept the fact that we're so DAMN far away from each other.

My sis told me tat when two people are really in love, distance doesn't matter n it doesn't makes a difference coz the love is strong enuff to overcome any obstacles n there will always be a way to make the relationship better. She told me that if we really want it then we shud fight for the goal and make a final decision wisely n to also think bout the future. Oh Gosh, she said soo many advice that my mind is now sooo clear..It's almost clear blue khekhe...n to noe deep in my heart that I'm a special person in his heart really makes me at ease. I love him soo much n i dunno wat i would ever do without him in my life. He has a very special place in my heart n he will always be tat special guy to me!!! I Love ya baby!!!N I hope ALLAH will answer my prayers...

Okie...before telling ya'll bout my day, i would like to say thankiu to all my friends who was there for me when i was crushed. Especially Nina, Erika n Vanja!!!Awwww Vanja's soooo sweet khekhe..she soo cute n i juz love her n the rest tooz!!!!!*muackz*

So...firstly i wanna let ya'll see sum pix which are overdue a longgg time ago khekhe...It was on Friday, last week...before Easter Holiday!!!!Weeee.....Me, Erika, Vanja n Nina went to Tensta to go pierce Vanja's nose but unfortunately the person who does it wasn't there n we were all starving like hell so we decided to go to PIZZA place!!!khekhe...but I've only got a pic of me lah coz Erika did not sent me the rest khekhe...Oh yea n on da same day in school...Nina n Kimone were "rapping" me for.....GUESS??!!...Chocolate!!!hahahah...

Me!!!at da restaurant eating pizza!!but as u can see i was too FULL

Look!!!...crazy peepz!!!Look at wat they did to my hair!!!...khekhe

Now do u guyz noe wat i mean by Crazy Peepz i have khekhe....Yeapz but still love them tho!!!*muackz*..Okie dokie...aiyoh..now i'm panthing like hell...Tat Natalia made me go down to da train station to meet her juz to talk to her for awhile...*haiz*..veli penat now...N now, i'm outta things to say...*haiz*

Okie, i wanna go sleep now..I start school early tomorroz n first lesson...TOK-Theory Of Knowledge..Sound stupid rite??VERY STUPID!!!I totally AGREE especially when da teacher is like a talking robot n sooooo annoyingly bitchy!!!ARGH!!!But unfortunately, i gotta go thru the course for 2 more years in order to get my diploma...*haiz*..wat a life khekhekhe...Oh Gosh!!I still haven't got a job yet *cries*...I need da job!!!!I need da money!!!!!I really need it coz i wanna go back in december to meet my boo...*cries* I miss dearly n i really need him by my side now but it's impossible...*cries*

I Love u CAYANG!!!!*muack*

aM dRoWnInG...cries

2005-04-06T18:19:00.000-07:00

" this song was specially for him but he never get da chance to listen to it but now the reasons are gone n there's no reason for me to wake up every morning...."

*cries*........am juz sooo speechless now...evrything's i've put hopes on went down da drain..He was evrything to me n I love him to death but it's all ain't gonna work..He knew it a long time ago but i keep denying it n now I've finally realised it..There's no hope..there will never be an "us" no more..*cries*...Tho he wasn't my first boyfriend, he was my first true love, he've taught me lotsa things, he gave me sparks when he kisses me, he make my stomach tickles when he call my name n he was juz my everything....

I dunno who to go to now...he was my homie, my adviser, my consoler when i'm down, tho he is far away, he still consoles me when i needed consolation but now all tat is gone. I can never talk to him like I used to, I can't say tat he's mine now coz he's not anymore n it breaks my heart into million of tiny pieces to know tat he gone outta my life.

Why does it have to happen, I always thought tat it will never come true, I alwayz thought tat our love is so strong tat nuthing will break us apart but i was wrong....It drowns me to know tat i was wrong *cries*

I'm now juz sitting here, listening to all those songs he sent me n told me tat it's specially for me n i'm juz sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks, remembering every single memories we had together n every single conversation we had on msn everyday without fail. While i'm writing this entry, i had to stop for many times coz it juz hurts reall bad n i dun think i can take it..I've lost lotsa special people in my life n now HIM..why HIM??!!Why??!!He was mine GOD DAMN IT!!!!He was da only one left n now he is also gone....YA ALLAH, plz....i'm down on my knees, plz tell me tat tis is gonna be for awhile...plz dun tell me it's gonna be forever PLZ.....

I'm begging u...I can't lose him, I dun wanna lose him....he means alot to me.....*cries* Ahhhhhh....I can't hardly breathe now..I need him but it has to end....It feels like sumone's choking me wit all these problems!!!!I can really go blind for crying...I love him n da last word i got from him was "mayb it's 4 the better" and "ok bye"..*cries*

oH GOSH!!!wat a day...

2005-04-04T18:08:00.000-07:00

Yeapz...i feel soo weak and tired now...I oso dunno why ley??...Hari ni, tina mcm taknak talk or have fun..*haiz*...Well, wat can i do rite??Juz live my life the way it is..Guess wat??!!Lunchroom tutup today and mungkin it will be tutup for 2 whole weeks...*haiz*..No food for me then..khekhekhe..but nevermind..two weeks only kan??If tina can handle so many broken heart then why can't I handle this kan??khekhekhe..

Nywayz, today was a great day..Great day as in the sun was really shining and it's soooo beautiful tau. Tadi me and Natalia sat outside the school after lunchtime. We talked about her party and guyz who are juz plain ASSHOLES!!!I mean i dun get it wit sum guyz...why can't they juz take their own god DAMN responsibilities??!!Soo stupid!!Yes, enjoy all the orgasm u had wit a girl but if u screwed up n not have a condom while doing it then deal wit the problem tats gonna happen later on!!!!Dun juz walk outta a girl's life juz coz she's pregnant!!!It's ur god DAMN mistakes too!!!n besides, IT UR OWN BABY!!!Stupid jerk!!!See, it's soo unfair for them to say tat it's hard to face the world because WE are the one carrying the BABY n it's much more HARDER for us to hide from the world than u, ASSHOLES!!!Stupid JERKS!!!!Think before u fucking enjoy the SEX!!!Ok, i'm not being bias here so i ma also giv lectures to da gurls....juz tell da guy to wear condoms!!!!even when they say it's uncomfortable juz force them to wear it n if they still dun wanna, simply say tat he ain't getting any p**** at ALL!!!!!*winkz* so u will not get urself into trouble!!

To Those Special Peepz!!

Ramou: U've came into my life and spiced it up wit lotsa ur jokes an evrything. I noe i dun really noe u tat long but u will alwayz have a special part in my heart coz u've been my listening ears when i'm totally crushed. I love ya like I love my own sisters and u will always be a part of my life eventho u gonna move far away from me/us. I will never forget ya baby ramou khekhe...I will surely miss all ur bullshits and mostly-->attitudes heheh...Love ya gurl!!Never forget me aitez..*winkz**muackz*

Nina: Well....u noe wat chu mean to me siztah khekhe...U've been there for thru thick and thin n never ignore my problems but u always (without failure) will alwayz console and help me in any way. U noe u mean alot to me n I love u tooz!!!U will also always be a part of my life n u will remain in my heart juz like any other gurlz close to me. But one thing for sure is tat u're da best n gurl, may our friendship last n last until judgement day!!Love ya!!

Kimone: Damn!!!I've known u for almost 3 years and gurl u've been there for me most...u were der wayyyyy before anyone was n i will never forget all those. U were da one who taught me how to stand up for myself n all n now partly becoz of u, i m whatever i m now (a better changed gurl)...Dun worry bitch!!U will be in my heart tooz khekhe..I love ya n tho we not like last time now, i still do love ya!!!hahaha....U're a special friends and tat's why we still stay as friends rite??Dun u ever leave me k??If u do...i'll pull ur whole body back to me khekhe..*winkz*

Maylen: This attitude sexy mama!!!hahaha...Love her to death coz she's da crazy kinda gurl u noe...She noes how to do it all n she's got the IT!!!khekhe...She's also one of them gurls who always reach a hand out for ya when u need it n she's juz simply Maylen n tat's why i love her sooo much!!!Yes baby gurl!!u will also be in my heart n i will never forget ur crazy"titude" heheh...Love ya!!!*hugz*

Lillian: Woa!!!!I LOVE THIS WOMAN HERE!!!I LOVE THIS BITCH!!!khekhe...she's my partner in crime n clubs...(sumtimes khekhe)...She's juz the greatest n she's simply a joker in the group!!She will make u laugh no matter where n when...I can crack my head out when i'm with her n tat's juz da simple reasons why i love her!!She's a crazy ass chick!!!*muackz*

Erika: Simply love ya tooz tho i dunno u tat well but u're juz fun to hang out wit...n she's a camera maniac!!!Weee!!!U will also b in my heart n dun go anywhere!!!Stay in sweden k??khekhe *hugz*

Vanja: When i see her, i juz jump in joy coz of her cutie face n our supplier for CIGG!!!hahah...well, not anymore but I still love her!!!hahah..She n her crazy mind can really make u go crazy but tat's da special thing bout her..yes gurl...u will be in my heart tooz...Wow...my heart is full wit people khekhe...*hugz*

Fatou: U thought i wud forget u did u??I love ya n i'm crazy bout ur cool attitude!!I mish ya baby gurl!!Come back soon n we can do another sleep over *winkz*...I mish all he horniness"titude" khekhe..She can really make u go ummmm...khekhe...Love YA!!!

I dunno wat i would do without all of them peepz!!!I love u all!!!*muackz*

Okie dokie...enuff said...so wanna c sum crazy pix of me and my crazy peepz in school?? *drum rolls* here it is!!!

mE n My beloved RaMoU!!!!!she's leaving tomorroz *cries*

Do i have to explain this?? khekhekhe...Look at my face khekhe...

Hahahaha...i can juz giggle and can cheer up immediately when i'm with them..*haiz* i dunno wat i would ever do without them in my BORING life khekhekhe...They spice up my life alil bit and of coz, i oso dunno wat i would ever do without my cyg!!!!I love him soooo much!!!He brings me back to life and made me fall in love all over again...*muackz*...ok,ok, i noe tat evry entry sure got sum mushy2 things for him but hey, wat's a girl gotta do when she's in LOVE khekhekhe...

ARGH!!!!Ramou is leaving all of us tomorroz!!I hate her for doing tat!!She's one of them closest person in my heart...she was also having the same problem like mine but everything have come to an end for her tomorroz...I'm sooo happy for her, I thank ALLAH for making her life better now after all she's been thru, i think she deserves it...*hugz*...Am gonna mish ya sweetie pie!!!Well, so now another place is empty in our wonderful circle of crazy peepz wit attitude...I wonder if sumone will replace tat place for Ramou n i wonder if it would be the same without tat girl...*cries*....

As months n years passed by, friends tat are true n close to me have came and went but tho they're far away n tho we dun really call each other everyday, they will always remain in my heart coz these kinda peepz are very hard to find n they dun come and go but they remain tho not physically.

Oklah....now i wanna go rest then take a shower then do HOMEWORK!!!Aiyoh, mati lah like this!!!!But nevermind!!!Party this Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!Wohoooo....

I BrUiSe EaSiLy...

2005-04-02T20:54:00.000-08:00

My athem for now...The first time i heard this song, tears fell from my eyes immediately and as I look back in my life, I've faced it tat life isn't always as rosy as i thought it would be. I noe tat my heart have been hurt many times n tho it seems like my wounds are healed but deep inside, the bruises n scars will always remain.

These heart-broken i've had has not made me stronger but it has juz made me weaker and weaker everday. I try to hide the pain, I try to be the positive person as a friend/gf or watever, I try to put a smile on my face everyday n try as hard as possible to be that shinning sun for sumone who needs it. I even try to put down my pride n let my friends step on my head juz as long as it will make them happy but u noe...now i realise tat i have to do those things for myself too, I have to take care of myself n not let my heart be bruised easily but it ain't tat easy and sumtimes i dun see why I'm still alive..

Noone noes the feelings i have inside my heart...noone noes tat i wake up in the middle of the nite n cry my heart out. I juz have to hide it inside myself..yes, i do tell sum of my friends my problems but they will never understand..I'm juz sitting here with a heartache n have no idea wat to do...*cries*

For HiM...(plz read this):

To start off this paragraph, i wanna say yg i taknak be soo mushy2 but this is wat i have to say to u. I noe u dun wanna answer sum questions i have in line for u coz it makes u depress. I noe i'm a million miles away from u, I noe i can't be there by ur side when u need sumone, I noe i cannot be ur shoulder to cry on but i will always be here as ur listening ears n eventhough i'm not there by ur side, my presence will always be around u n u will never be forgotten coz u will always be in my heart. If we were to go our seperate ways one day, u will alwayz be the one I truly love n u will always have the burning flame of love in my heart. Tho we didn't have much time spent together, i still have the few memory we had together...I still remember every moment we were together in details. B, i dun want u to feel lonely coz i'm here, i dun want u to feel sad coz it hurts me more n i dun want u to stress out when u think bout me n my family's life coz tats the things i have to think bout, not u. One last thing i wud like to say is I will come back soon n I will be there by ur side when u need me but juz be patience cyg n plz dun give up hope n leave me, i'll go down on my knees if u do coz I love u, i truly do n i dun care if u dun luv me no more coz my love for u is here to stay forever.

KaAaBoOm!!!SpRiNg Is HeRe!!

2005-03-31T00:23:00.000-08:00

Woohooo!!!Spring is really, confirmed here!!The beautiful Sun is out...~phew~ finally after months n months of not seeing the sun properly!!!It's finally here...this is the exact moment i've been waiting for!!!Yipeeee...bestnye!!Now u can see people walking on the streets, enjoying the sun n now we all can stop wearing all those thick, thick sweater made from cotton or wool or watever they're made off...khekhekhe...Now i can wear my mini-skirt without any pantyhose (or however u spell tat khekhe)..Now i can flaunt my legs to all those papis out there khekhekhe...Now all the teenagers, including me can wear those sexy tops we've been waiting, dying to wear!!!Wohoooo...

My easter holiday is over soon sey!!School is on Monday n I've got flu!!!U noe lah..typical of sweden to get flu when the weather is changing..but nywayz, my flu not tat bad so it's okiez khekhekhe...Well, it's been a perfect easter holiday, i've got sooo much of sleep n food!!!Aiyoh...i'm fatter each day n summer is in 3 months n i HAVE to slim down if not cannot suntan on the beach khekhekhe...

I dunno why but in fact, i'm missing my friends in school and all the gurls I hang out wit when am in school..We are like soulsiztahssss khekhe..no but seriously kan, if we have one hour of free time, we will ALWAYS come up wit sumthing crazy to do n it will ALWAYZ turn out to be fun...Not tat we dun keep in touch wit each other when it's holiday but tis is easter holiday so everybody have plans wit their family, including me lah..So tat's why no time to meet up but it's okiez...Monday is close so we gonna meet!!!!Wohooo...

US!!!Enjoying the sun lah!!Wohoooo...this is the half of US..the other half, entah gi mane je...

Guess wat??!!Lillian nak tukar skola n Ramou will be moving back to New York!!*cries*...We are such close friends and now things juz have to fucked up huh??..Well, i dunno lah si lillian ni..she said each time she comes to school, she'll feel stress lah n yadeh yadah..I've tried to advice her not to change n juz continue IB but she still doesn't wanna listen to me!!!She's turning down a GREAT opportunity!!She has come all the way here n now she wanna give it up..*haiz*...Yea, i do understand her lah..,coz i feel da same way tooz sumtimes but to give up on the IB becoz of the people around u is soo pointless!!It's no point giving up becoz of sumone else n in fact, u'll show them tat u're BIG loser.."Life is all about sacrifise"..I remember my mom telling me tat evertime i feel like giving up..It's true...u have to sacrifise before u get to be happy, Rite??..I'm not trying to brag about myself but people in school look down on me becoz of my pass doing n yes, i was weak n felt like giving up BUT i took back my pride n now i walk around the school with dignity!!People call me bitch, slut n all kinda names u can ever imagine but if they choose to treat me like tat then i will treat them the way they do.

Aiyah...lets juz drop this subject...khekhe...ARGH!!!I mish him soo much but i guess i have to bear the pain..He said sumthing yesterday tat really touched my heart..Never in my life have a guy said tat to me n i was soo touched tat i was speechless at the same time. Tina juz giggle n yea, ok, i shouldn't have juz giggle but as i said, i was speechless khekhekhe...Wanna noe wat he said to me??...He told me tat I was his soulmate n he told me once too tat if any of us wud die first, he wants me to die first coz then he could bear the pain n suffer and he dun wan me to bear the pain n suffer...*cries*...I juz melted when he said dat n it really meant alot to me..I dunno if he meant it or not but it still touched my heart. Sumtimes, i juz wish tat our relationship will be as simple as other relationship but tat's juz any other wish...I dunno if this re will work but everday i pray hard tat we will last forever n ever coz noone except ALLAH noes how much he means to me...No amount can count my love for him...eh eh, mushy nye khekhekhe but it's true heheh...*muackz*...LOVE YA B!!!

Okie..enuff wit all those mushy, mushy things khekhe...Ouu..yelah, lupe nak say...there was this swede-canadian couple who came all the way from Karlma (south part of Sweden) to visit us!!It was soo nice..,we celebrated easter togethe...well, not really celebrate lah, juz the hiding of eggs filled wit chocolate n have lotsa, lotsa food on the table!!It was GOOD!!My dad made this potato thingy in the oven!!Fuyooo power benar!!!khekhekhe...

Seee....the couple on the left side of the sofa...They look soo swit together khekhe..soo cute!!

And again!!!Weeeee.....The day they going back!!Let's hit the road bebeh khekhe..!!!

PiCtURe FrOm Da CrUiSe!!!wohooo

2005-03-29T16:22:00.000-08:00

Okie dokie...yeapz, changed to da previous layout!!!khekhekhe...Well...of all the layout I've used, tina still likes this one!!It 's simply me..nuthing better can describe me than thru this all pinkish page of mine khekhekhe....

Okie, i noe i haven't been a good blogger but hope my kawanz understand tat i can't post so many entries these few days..SORRIE again!!*muackz*...Ouuuu, nice or not the song??Veli cute sey...i like the voice of the cute creature in da chorus khekhe...it's sooooo pwute!!!khekhekhe...Guess who sent me this song??Siape lagi kalau not my sweetie sugar, vanilla, chocolaty pie!!khekhekhe...Soooo cuteee....

Nywayz.., as u guyz can see....i am back wit da pictures from the cruise!!!Wohooo...this time, we did not take much pictures coz we were busy wit our KTV n yadeh yadeh...Okie,okie...enuff talking n more actions khekhekhe...

dA vIeW oUtSiDe!!!There were tons of boats khekhe (not tons but many khekhe)

Moi!!!Posing for da cammy!!!!khekhe...veli posy sey khekeh!!

Hit da jackpot bebeh!!!yea...my uncle playing the machine!!!(me looking confused)

Us!!!Looking like these two snobs!!!khekhekhe posy huh??khekhe

Well....there u go!!my pix from my wonderful trip to Finland!!!!Nice??I noe khekhekhe...got more pix but too lazy to upload it lah khekhekhe...sowie...*winkz*...Aiyoh,i got so many to update but i can't do it all in one entry rite??So hang on wit me n be patience, i will share evrything wit u guyz kiez..*muackz*...

Okie, now i wanna go layan my frenny!!U guyz have fun n take carez...Love ya'll *muackz*

sOrRy!!!!been busy sweetiesss!!!khekhe

2005-03-27T17:06:00.000-08:00

Okie dokie...sorry evryone for being away for soo long!!!I've been fulled up lately n i didn't have time to sit infront of da comp to post an entry n to those who tagged me...,i LOVE ya'll n thx for dropping by to see wats happening in my so-called not happening life khekhekhe....THANKS ALOTZ!!!!

Nywayz...,da clock is forwarded one hour oredi!!!!N do u noe wat tat means??!!!IT'S SUMMERR!!!!wohooo...can't wait to sit by the beach, eat cold ice-cream n juz chit-chat bout all kinda things!!!Ouuu i got to wear my miniskirt on thursday!!FINALLY!!!khekhekhe....well, for now i'm kinda lazy to post things tat have happened n besides, all i wanna do now is juz lie down on my bed alllllll DAY Long khekhe!!!Well...i promise ya'll tat more things are coming kiez n eza, thx for being such a caring friend!!!yes, i'm fine...cume busy n penat my brain khekhehe..*muackz*

InfaTuAtIoN!!

2005-03-21T20:39:00.000-08:00

WoHooo...~Can't help my infatuation...iT's juz pure infatuation!!~..YES!!This songie is for HIM!!Weeheee but juz change the spanish thingie to, u noe khekhekhe...I'm crazy abt dedication of songs huh??...*giggles*....Well...nywayz, am back from da 5 days "holiday" from my blog now khekhe....Yipee...I dunno why ley i'm soo happy today *giggles*

*haiz*...been a tiring day tho...I ma hav my Math Test tomorroz n i have to do history n psychology homewerk...aiyoh...can die like this u noe khekhekhe...U noe..da psychology teacher is CUTE!!!But he's soo damn fucking strict man but it's okie!!He's da reason for me to wake up evry Thursday morning khekhe (i noe am telling ya'll alot of time but am juz obsess) khekhekhe....ARGH!!!I miss HIM soooo much!!!All i wanna do now is juz be able to see him n give him many many many hugz n kisses...*muackz**muackz*muackz* khekhekhe...It's okie...i'm gonna be as patient as ever and try to save up money so me can go back!!Wohooo...(insyallah)

Nywayz...U noe, tadi me and Nina went all the way to the Cancer Foundation Office to look up for a job but guess wat??!!We were 30mins late so it was close!!!ARGH!!!Stupid place...cannot wait meh??30 mins only mah!!Stupid dumbass!!*giggles* Well, well...my kawanz semua ajal tina gi "The Wave" (a dance club) this Saturday but dunno ley whether i shud go...First thing i hav to think bout is da money...i dun wanna waste money u noe!!n second thing i have to think about is coming home late at nite alone somemore!!Eeeee takut aku...u noe how many pervertic assholes there are in this world!!!*yucks**pukes*...Aiyoh, dunno lah eh..it's been quite awhile since i partied but nowadays tina got no mood for partyin and all this bullshit but well...we'll see guyz..maybe my mood for partying will be up, up n up there then we can go khekhekhe....

Ouuu...guess wat i found while browsing thru da pix in my computer??!!Sum pix taken when i was on a holiday in Singapore (in the summer lah!!!)...Wanna see sum??khekhekhe

iNtroducing da two gelojoh promoting the epok2 khekhekhe n introducing the gurl who is OBSESS wit her Hp!!!

See!!!mane2 pergi si dektu mesti pegang her Hp khekhe n my cuzzy!!tak abis2 makan!!aiyoh!!

Ahhhh introducing half da crew!!!weee having fun at Wild, Wild, Wet!!weeheeee...khekhe

Another pic of the whole crew!!!Semua dah habis berendam n all dah kembang dah khekhe(da last ones to get outta ther :-P)

There u go...,at KTV!!!Me n my brovie!! (dark kan??!!) DUH, of coz lah!!!khekhe

Here introducing the "berjiwang" "shiok sendiri" siztaz!!khekhe...singing our lungs out tau!!!khekhe...

Yeapz..i've got lotsa memories in Singapore, tho i wasn't there for long but the memories are still fresh in my mind n will always be close to my heart!!!Aiyon, i got more pix but i'm too lazy to browse thru the comp n post it lah khekhe...Maybe next time bebeh!!Wohooo....

Eh u noe wat??!!..Tadi there was this nasty ASSHOLE telling me I have a nice ass n he wants to touch it!!!I turned around n shouted at him n made him embarrased infront of the whole station!!!U son of a B**C*!!!Dun u dare do dat to me again coz i ma make u suffer!!!N dah macam gitu there this another guy who was walking in a circles around me...He actually saw me smiling n i was smiling coz i was talking on da phone then when he was at my back, i realised tat he was also checking my ass!!!Now c wat i mean by there's thousands of pervetic ASSHOLES in this world??!!Aiyoh, stupid nasty bastards...Well, i was actually scared u noe but here cannot show tat u're scared...gotta show tat u're not easy n u're a strong lady!!So tat's wat tina did lah khekhekhe...

Oklah, Oklah, If i continue, my entry today will be a DAMN long one so i ma stop here kiez...*winkz*....Love ya'll sooo much n thx for being my bloggie reader!!!Tat's sooo swit *muackz*...N to him!!I LOVE YOU!!!I ma scream to the whole world tat I LOVE YOU CYG!!!*hugz**muackz*

To Love Sumone New is juz An Invitation for More Pain..

2005-03-16T22:06:00.000-08:00

*giggles*...dun understand my title??..Sit back n relax n Juz let dOlLy-TiNa explain her title..khekhekhe...Well..., when u really think bout it, it is true tat to love sumone new is juz an invitation for more pain coz when u love sumone sooo deep, u wouldn't wanna lose them n u wouldn't even think abt living ur life without da people u love. But there will always be a time when u will lose tat sumone u love, and by losing them, it gives u pain...it feels like millions of needles poking thru ur heart tat sumtimes u feel like u can't take the pain no more, sumtimes u feel sooo hurt tat all u wanna do is juz be by their side, wherever they are...And when u have to love sumone new then u will have to invite more pain coz when u've love sumone, u wouldn't wanna lose them either and, u'll juz have more pain...It's kinda like a cycle coz u keep loving people n at the same time u'll keep losing ur so-called recent loved ones, of coz, every human-being have their time to leave this world but tat's juz alil' sumthing i wanna share wit u people..khekhekhe..*smiles to myself*..I ain't saying tat u shudn't love more people but this is juz how i see it..I am still gonna continue to love people and dun worry dOlLy-TiNa has got lotsa love for people..*giggles*

Anywayz...enough wit my definition of thing!!khekhekhe...Now...I was going thru old and new pix on my comp and i found sum cute pix of me and my family n it rewinded my "memory lane"...khekhekhe...Those nice memories we had as a family and as a child..those nice, cozy nites we were in my mum's room, talking n juz having fun and those nice holidays in different places...HAHAHA..talk abt rewinding ur "memory lane" khekhekhe...

dA sMaLl LiL Us!!!(from left to right:My second sis,My bro,My eldest sis n Me!!!(da "ex" nerd!!khekehkeh)

dA 4 ChEeKy SiBlInGs khekhe...cute rite??!!I NOE!!!
(from top to bottom:Jie Lynda(my eldest sis), Jie Reda(my second sis), ME!! and my cutie Bro!!!

Our Lovely trip to New Zealand!!nice the background??!!It was kinda cold..*brr*..Look at me!!Da "ex" never smile gurl khekhekhe.. (from left to right:me,Moi beloved mommy!!,my eldest sis and moi second sis n lastly my cutie pie!!adik ku!!

N Look at us now!!!Weeeee...Transformation!!!khekhe

Juz LoOk at us now!!!overgrown our mommy khekhe..n da gurl i blue..u noe da gurl who never smiles last time is now smiling 24/7 khekhe!!

N not forgetting moi siszy, Lynda!!

SEE!!!Da cheeky n devilish siszy of mine!!khekhekhe...

Oh gosh!!I can still remember those memories like the back of my hand...*cheydebak*..I still remember us being those cheeky kids we used to be (am still am sumtimes khekhe?)..I hope one day, anytime soon we will be together as one like we used to be..I love my family!!There will NEVER be any hatred (insyallah)...tho i'm always saying i hate them when i'm mad...*smiles wit my tongue out*...khekhekhe...

Well...guess wat??!!...My grades n things in school have been boosting up my confidence!!!heheh...wat a great feeling!!!I'm loving it!!*padapapapa*...khekhekhe..Yeapz...u noe wat I mean!!I pass my Biology n Swedish test n *cross my finger*...can't wait to see my computer result!!!Oh and luckily...I think God Loves me so he canceled da spanish class on Monday so NO spanish TEST!!!!Weeee....Perfect, ain't it??!!khekhekhe...

*haiz*...juz now i came home, i prayed n then i thought of laying down on my bed but the moment my head reaches my pillow...," DREAMLAND, HERE I COME!!" khekhekhe...So now i'm still feeling awake while evryone's going to bed soon khekhekhe...eh, eh...I'm blabbering rite??!!ain't I??khekhekhe...Sorry lah kawanz2 ku yg tersayang!!am juz in a "blabbering" mood...*smiles*

Aiyoh..tomorroz i start 8:10 u noe!!U noe wat time i hav to wake up??!!At 6!!!Mampos aku but it's okie...anything for pyschology classes!!khekhekhe *yea rite*..Nolah,i actually enjoy pyschology classes..it's fun tau!!Da way u read people's mind n all these research..veli full of excitement n new knowledge!!Wooo..am thinking of becoming one shrink kehkehkeh...(insyallah)...Nywayz...i talk too much lah!!khekhekhe...I bet in ur mind u all are saying, "Oh finally si tina realise she's talking too much!!"..kan??kan??kan??khekhekhe...jokin je..*giggles*...oklah..buh bye n will keep u guys update!!!*muackz*

another stress week coming my way!!!

2005-03-14T16:04:00.000-08:00

Firstly, tina would like to say thank you to all my friends who tagged me and who cared for me....am really touched by all ur tags and will never forget all ur words of wisdom or watever they are called khekhekhe...*muackz*...

Nywayz, am in school now...studying spanish for da upcoming test tomorroz...*haiz*....i dun think i ma make it to tis test coz there are too many things to study at once!!!Well, as u all can see, am taking a break for awhile khekhekhe.....my brain is really really tired sey...aiyoh, boleh mati tau cam gini!!!I juz hope i ma at least get a passing points for this spanish test...*prays hard to ALLAH*...

Nuthing much happened today..., juz da simple and normal life i lead evryday. Am just da normal tina..living my life da way it is and not letting people look down on me. I'm totally outta words and i juz feel like blogging now coz am feeling stress...i got too much on my mind and it seems as tho no one is there to say the things they shud say when sumone is having this kinda stress..I wanna talk to sumone but it's juz dat evryone is having their own dilemma or problems so i guess tis is da only place to go to release all my heartache...I noe i've not been really there for few of my friends but am really sorrie k??...I'm juz not in the right position to be giving advice to anyone but u guyz noe tat eventho i'm not giving u guyz good advice, i still try to console u all and dun get me wrong....Tina am not a selfish person tau...

How i wish things weren't this complicated and how i wish life is not a matter of fighting for everything but those are juz wishes and i noe it'll never come true..Well...i really dunno now...am a reall confused girl leading her complicated life. As days, hours, mins and sec pass, i feel like giving it all up but wat eza said is true...She told me tat by giving up, u're a loser...I dun wanna be a loser and i dun wanna have to face the world knowing tat they're laughing their ass out at me but it seems as tho i'm already a loser even if i give up or not...

I dunno...am I??am I already a loser???*cries*

haiz...am stressed out in school n am feeling down...

2005-03-11T21:38:00.000-08:00

Would like to start off wit dedicating this song to aLfIaN!!!I noe wat we are in now is veli complicated but hey...maybe this is juz our fate...maybe u'll find sumone who is better for ya and who can really be there by ur side but we'll see wat happens next and for now we juz have to accept da fact tat it's gonna be like this..Tapi cyg, no matter wat happens u'll alwayz be my boo, u'll alwayz be da first guy who taught me to look at life differently, da first guy who kissed my forehead and said, "tat if a guy kisses ur forehead, u'll never forget tat person", da first guy who gaves me real fireworks when he kisses me and da first person who will alwayz be remembered by me and remember one more thing, ONLY YOU B!!!*muackz*

dA cOuPlE WiT dA cOmPliCaTeD sItUaTiOn!!!

jUz Da GuRl wIt Da BrOkEn SmiLe....
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jUz A tRuE hErO tO rEsCuE dA gUrL

Yesh....veli depressing title i have there...yeapz..,am feeling kinda stressed out wit school n depress bout da situation i'm in wit alfian..I had 3 test this week!!!Computer, Biology and Swedish test!!!My brain is dead for now..have been feeling tired lately!!!ARGH!!!n guess wat??!!More test coming next week!!!OMG!!I think i ma die soon...i can't take this stress...dahlah banyak homeworks n now alot of test!!It's quite true when da IB2's students say tat it's juz gonna be more n more stress in this programme!!!I juz really hope and will pray hard for myself!!!I seriously hope i can go thru these three years in da IB programme..*haiz*....(kalau dolly dah tak blog then tat means me dah mampos lah...khekhekhe)..jokin je khekhekhe, ya ALLAH, jauhkan lah....

Wohoo!!Got back my Swedish test today!!!Well...it was sooooo good, it made me feel soooo great!!!I got 48/50...well, i noe tat i cud have gotten full marks but hey..evrybody makes mistakes kan??n evrybody is not PERFECT...DUH!!of coz lah!!....But still, i was soo proud of myself !!!I had fun in Swedish class today, actually...We had a debatt on da banning of smoking in pulic places thingy tat da government is gonna start with, on da 1st of june 2005!!!I really shared a piece of my mind about it man!!..Well, of coz i was against it and i juz think it's kinda stupid to ban smoking in public places..I mean..,yea, i understand if they will stop da smoking thingy in cafes and restaurants but for heaven's sake not da streets!!!!Are u crazy or wat??!!Wat harm can smoking on da streets do??!!I mean it's outside, anywayz!!!GOD!!Seriously!!I dunno wat to say abt da Swedish Government!!STUPID!!!!I'm seriously getting outta this country after graduating!!!HELL YEAH!!!...

Wohooooooo....2 more weeks to easter holiday!!!!!Me, lillian and nina are planning on going to London for da easter holidays!!!!Woooo...but planning onli...not confirm *haiz*...i really wanna go to London and see da place there!!I dunno....money,money,money!!!I hav to think abt tat....i can't spend any single cent on unnecessary things now coz i have to save as much as possible to be able to go back to Singapore!!Oh shit!!Talking bout tat, I remember now tat i have to write a c.v for job application!!!ARGH!!!am really stressed out sey...I hope i ma get a job any soon coz i really need it!!!*crosses my fingers* n *prays to ALLAH*

Things in school is kinda going well for me!!!Am soo happy for tat...coz u noe...lately, been having problems ngan catherine and problems wit sum peepz there but now it's all cool n i've started talking to Catherine now!!!*smiles to myself*...Hmmmm...I chatted to him juz now...it was nice n the feeling was cozy...it felt as tho i was there now, talking to him...I miss him dearly!!!I miss all his hugs, kisses, advice n basically i miss being there by his side n his presence near me...But wat can i do rite??This is wat ALLAH has got in line for me...i dunno...maybe he's juz another lover tat will leave me soon.., maybe he's juz a guy who is suppose to come into my life...but...for a moment...Sum things are still not werking out for us and we still werking on it n da thing tat got me hanging on to him n making me strong in this thing we're having is da way he love me...It's juz simply unreplaceable...I truly love him..,from da bottom of my heart...

dA gUrL wIt BrOkEn DrEaMz...

bAcK fRoM da CrUiSe, ScHoOl Re-OpEn, 3 weeKs to EaStEr HolIdAy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wohooooooo....

2005-03-08T20:39:00.000-08:00

Wei!!!!!!Oh, i seriously had fun on da boat on da weekend!!!It was juz perfect and GREAT!!!!Okie ica and sum others, i noe u all waiting for da pix to be posted rite??But sorrie tina lom upload agi and it takes time lah coz i have to do it on my dad's comp....but tina promise to upload it and post it a.s.a.p kiez keng kawan??...*muackz*....Well, all i can say abt da cruise was, PERFECT get-away!!!!Me, Nina, My sis and her friends got into a club and danced allllllll nite long sey!!!WOHOOOO!!!!......Yeapz, lucky me and Nina for getting in khekhekhe....guess wat time we got back to our room??!!At 4:30am!!!Yeapz, we danced for 5 freaking hours, i think...at least khekhekhe...we danced/partied allll nite long khekhekhe...It was FUN and i danced wit this HOT and FINE guy there but well for awhile onli....and they drop off at Åbo da next day so wateva!!!

Guess wat we did before heading to da club??!!My sister, Nina and two of my sis's other friends drank shots of tequilla!!!heiiiiii...gile sak they all n my sis bodoh lak tu...minum tequilla campur cider...ape lagi??the kick lagi power lah khekhekhekhe and i had smirnoff, sum cider and teeny weeny bit of GIN!!!! Woooo!!!POWER!!! but *yucks* GIN sucks man!!, i LOVE my SMIRNOFF BEST!!!! Nywayz...,of coz, they got kinda tipsy and my sister keep on wanting to fall down on da dance floor *LoL* but da thing i hate bout da club was da song!!!ewwwww...TECHNO!!!!alll da time sampai me n Nina had to go up to da DJ to tell him to change da song to sum hip-hop and R&B...and of coz....da old, nasty, ugly guyz tooz!!!Ewww...tak tau malu....eh...dah tua!!!go find ur age!!dun come to us!!We girls wanna have fun, dancing not wit you!!!!

There was this particular guy who kept coming on to me, telling me how beautiful and sexy i was and how good i was on da dance floor!!!I kept telling him to go away but he keep coming back!!eeeee geram aku tgk!!then lak tu da next day die nampak tina, he kept telling me to sit beside him n action to be a hot hunk infront of me *rolls my eyes*...pegidah!!!plz!!! i've oredi got a special hunk i like and he will alwayz b my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!weeee!!!!(u noe who u are,baby!!) *muackz*

Ouuuu....guess wat tat special sumone did for me yesterday??!!!We chatted as normal n then suddenly he sent this to me...

da first one!!veli cute rite??...dun worry cyg!!!will cya soon kiez??!!*muack*

awwwww....soooo swit n pwute!!!Love ya so muchie!!!n dun worry....u've coloured my world wit ur loving oredi!!!*hugz*

cute and swit tooz, ain't it??I was sooooooo touched when i received it...okie fine, i noe it's nuthing big but hey....at least he had da thought and time to even sit infront of da comp to do it for me....And besides.....,it's always da thought tat counts!!!

Nywayz, back to my trip!!!!After da crazy nite we had...we went KTV da next day!!!!wooohoooo!!POWER!!!Me and Nina sang "Like a Virgin" khekhekhe...okie fine, tho we weren't tat good but wateva!!!I had fun and my mummy bought lotsa chocolate from da boat!!!And bile kite sampai stockholm at nite kan...wow..each person pastinye ade org bawah balik alcohol khekhekhe and tat include my uncle and my sister's friends lah khekhe...But wateva it is, i had a GREAT time!!!!n i wanna do it again!!!Weeeee!!!

Well...., school dah start and got back my spanish and history test back but am quite dissapointed tho coz i noe i cud have done better for history if i had more time n i noe i cud do better for spanish if i had not confused myself but it's ok...there will be another second chance and this time, i cannot make anymore mistakes!!!

Weeheee....2 n a half more weeks to easter holiday!!wah power sey!!!baru had winter holiday last week and now i juz have to wait for 2 n a half more weeks to another holiday!!!Weeee!!!...Bestnye!!!Hmmm....must plan wat to do!!Tak boleh wait ah!!!Weee...*jumps in joy*

sOrRy bout da stupid tagboard!!!muackz

2005-03-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

Firstly i wud like to say sorry k all my kawanz coz of my stupid tagboard....Well, now tina dah tukar so u all can tag kiez??*winkz*...Okie...i juz got back from Nina's place..yeapz, tina slept over her place yesterday!!!It was fun...we had our chit-chat, gossips n watch lotsa tv shows khekhekhe...So now her turn to sleep over moi place lah...My holiday is coming to an end soon n back to reality again *haiz*...but it's cool coz i'm gonna try to make it thru IB n will try not to drop out..*insyallah*...Weee...it's cruising day besok...(hope it will be a great n safe trip)...I can't wait either khekhekhe...

Okie....this whole paragraph is for eza, sweetie!!!I was sooo touched when u had a paragraph in ur entry today..Thanks alot kiez sweety!!Well, i dun blame u lah khekhekhe...i noe ur comp sort cikit kan??khekhekhe n besides, my tagboard sort oso mah khekhekhe...And sweetie, eventho i tag u quite often, i'm not asking u to tag back on my site coz am doing it coz i enjoy reading ur entries n tagging ya khekhekhe!!!Weeeee!!!*muackz* Lup ya!!!

Nywayz...lotsa things happening in my life lately...My opinion on certain things have changed n i'm not da tina i used to be..I alwayz thought tat love was sumthing beautiful, i alwayz thought tat love was a fairy tale, i alwayz thought love was when u have sumone to hold u down, i alwayz thought tat love was sumthing u share wit sumone, i alwayz thought tat love was suppose to make me feel da most happiest girl in da world n i alwayz thought love was not suppose to hurt but i guess i was wrong...I noe i'm still young n still have lotsa things to learn from all da mistakes i've made but i guess i've been thru it alil bit too many times n i dun think i will be able to go thru it again...If it is true tat love is not suppose to hurt then why am i hurting tis much??why is love making me feel used??why is love breaking my heart into small tiny bits of pieces n wouldn't fix it back together again??why issit alwayz me??

Sumtimes i tink tat tis is juz KARMA for me but how much more can i take??I've never done these kinda things to anyone...so why did ALLAH choose me??My heart have been bruised too many times, my mind have been killed with all those sweet words n my body is too weak to handle all this now..If u're reading tis entry, plz juz answer this simple question for me....WHY??WHY are u doing this to me??I dun understand u...I thought evrything i did for you was enough but i guess no matter wat i do for u will never be enough for you huh??I will never be able to satisfy u rite??If it is true...why dun u juz quit wat u're doin n juz let me move on wit life??It seems like u're haunting me evrynite n each time i try to turn over a new page, i can't coz u will alwayz be there to stop me...Juz explain why wouldn't u let me go n move on wit my life if i'm never doing enough for u??

I noe it's hard for me to move on but either way i juz have to, i've been going round n round searching for an answer but i couldn't find da answer so i guess da answer is not me but YOU...It's okie if u break my heart into a million of pieces n it's okie if u won't catch me when i fall coz i noe tat deep inside me i have a hero who will catch me when i fall n i noe damn rite tat my family will alwayz be der to catch my fall too....So now...all i want from u is juz to let me fall, let me fall into a million of pieces....coz ur love scares me n it's juz like a bottle of poison tat chokes me to death...

Signing off,
TiNa

To sumone;
This song is dedicated to u okie??..I noe tat u've been thru wit me when i was going thru this pain n for sumone like u who is really patient n who's really der for me will never be forgotten coz u hold me down n i ma hold u down sumday tooz...I noe u've been waiting for a long time for my answer but juz gimme more time n space coz for now, i really need lotsa 'em...Thank hunny bunny...*muackz*

aIn'T iT fUnNy??!!

2005-03-02T21:29:00.000-08:00

hai...dah bosan wit da Obsession song lah dey khekhekhe...but da song still has dat special memory deep in my heart n mind k??..*winkz to him*..Okie dokie...wanna noe who called me n msg me juz now??!!!My ex-boyfriend!!!!Gosh!! After like.. how many years of not talking, he came back to me??!!Wanna noe why he called me??!!..Pasal die dah break ngan matair die lor...Ok...if ya'll wanna noe, he's da kinda guy who comes running back to u when he needs ya...Well huney...i might been letting u back in life over n over again but i told ya tat i'm thru wit ur bullshit n tat means i ain't gonna take u back EVER AGAIN aitez!!!Coz u noe why??!!!I'm sick n tired of u, using me, like a fucking doormat!!!!I've changed!!I'm not wat u tink i am!!!..Well, all i can say is "wat goes ard comes ard huh??!!" n listen to this song n read da lyrics...it's all for ya baby!!!

"u shud have never played the game u played, now i'm seeing tat u kinda lame.."

Nywayz...*rolls my eyes*...I went to town wit siszy today...It was freaking cold sey...*brrrr*..but it was kinda ok..juz walked ard n we went to sum shops n checked sum shoes out...Well, nuthing much really...Woi, my adik slept over Yaty's place sey!!Hope he's having fun wit Khai...I kinda miss him khekhke n i kinda mizs Yatyyyyyy!!!!She went to London!!*cries*...Jeles aku!!!I wanna go there too but apparently i'm brooke n besides...i'm going to da cruise thingy....so....maybe i'll go to London in da autumn or sumthin'!!!Weeee....Ohh,i still haven't got a job yet!!*cries*...i need a freaking job if i wanna go back in winter!!I have to go back in winter!!!!We've planned soo much n i can't juz cancel it...Oh ya Allah, plz help me pweety plz...*begging n praying on my knees*

Haiz....besok gonna sleep over Nina's place...Weee!!!can't wait khekhekhe...Erm...i dunno wat more to say leh...Maybe i should not have blogged today khekhekhe but wateva!!!Buh ByE!!!!*muackz*

Weeee!!!!!

2005-02-28T20:16:00.000-08:00

Woi!!!I love my bloggie!!!it's sooo cute sey...khekhekhe...u guyz like it tooz??No??!!then go away lah coz i'm loving it!!!!Ohhh am addicted to Frankie J's song!!!Each time i listen to this song, it makes me smile widely sey...weee...guess why??!!Coz there was tis guy who dedicated this song to me...*blush blush* khekhekhe....my heart melted when i heard tis song n when he said he has feelings for me...*smiles n blushes* n u noe....i like him tooz lah n thinks he's fine!!khekhekhe...

To him
Okie dear...,u gotta take it slow wit me kiez??...i dun wanna rush coz am still scared n recovering from my last break-up..Yesh, i noe i'm available now but i dun wanna make u think tat am easy to get k??!!I ain't n for ur info, i'm hard to get!!*winkz*....I wanna make sure tat wat u have for me is true n it ain't no joke coz am sick and tired of all those "sweet-talkers" n i dun think i can handle them no more n i will really pray hard tat u're not one of them...I noe u read my bloggie so i hope u understand why i'm acting da way i am to ya...*muackz*

Okie u all might think i heal easily n am a playa but i ain't!!This kinda things juz come my way n i ma juz take it as wat ALLAH has given me..But this time, i ain't gonna rush love coz if it's fated for me then it will NEVER go away rite??...

Nywayz...today i meet up wit Nina n i brought my lil' bro along...Yeapz...we went to soo many shops, juz to get Nina a new pair jeans...*rolls eyes*...khekhekhe...wah Nina, gumman..., u cannot make up ur mind huh??khekhekhe...but i like da jeans u bought!!It's really nice tho it's alil bit too expensive but i think it's worth it..*winkz* *muackz*...After goin round n round n finally got da jeans, we headed to da pool place...Brought my adik play pool since he's never tried it before..khekhekhe....I'm telling ya, he was good for a first-timer...better than his sista!!*hide my face* khekhekhe...After da wonderful match between Nina n my Bro, we headed home and guess wat??!!It was snowing like HELL sey!!Da snow was all over our clothes n we got kinda wet!!!Am sick and tired of da snow now!!!n Brrrrr...it was cold n guess wat da temp was in da morning??!!It was -20 degrees sey...*cuddle in da blanket*....

*Haaaachewwwww*....*cough*....haiz, am feeling soo weak..feels like uäm dying khekhekhe...it feels soo weird n annoying!!!..khekhekhe....Ohh damn it!!I can't be sick!!!I have to get well as soon as poss coz if i'm sick then i cannot go out..., have to stay in bed for da whole week..(oh, how boring is tat??!!)...n plus, i can't enjoy on da cruise if i'm sick...*cries*.....5,3...ermm, no 2..erm..dunno leh..counting down to da day we going cruising!!!Weeee really can't wait!!!We gonna take lotsa pix n i mean lotsa of 'em!!!!khekhekhe....Hmmm....i wonder wat's on tv tonite?? *thinking to myself*....Ouuu, u noe wat??!!Juz now, me n my adik were waiting for my mummy in da train station n we started talking bout food we missed in Singapore n ouuuu i can't wait to go back to eat all da food!!!!khekhekhe...n i mish da nite life especially...da nite light here BORING!!!especially in da winter..*rolls eyes*.....Well, wat to do??Spring is around da corner anywayz...So be patience Tina!!!Be patience!!!....

Ahhh kawanz2...pray hard for me kiez??...Pray hard tat i will move on to IB1 in August!!!!I hope i will....Ya allah, plz help me wit this....

ShIt MaN!!!!!!ArGh!!!!!

2005-02-26T11:54:00.000-08:00

Okie, I'm fucking pissed off wit my bloggie thingy!!!ARGH!!!!I dun noe wat's wrong wit it??!!See lah!!!all my pix tat i posted cannot be seen and when i replace it to a new one, still cannot be seen!!!!N it's sooo fucking fucked up!!!!ARGH!!!I hate tis shit man!!!!Fucking stupid, shitty blog i have!!!Okie...i noe been swearing for da first few sentences but u noe...am freaking pissed wit tis shit!!Did evrything, still cannot work n now i have to delete almost all of my entries n it still doesn't work sey!!!!Am freaking pissed!!

Anywayz....I'm sitting here, listening to The Loneliness by Babyface. This song veli jiwang sey but i'm listening to it coz this is one of my fav song lah khekhekhe...but still, this song makes me cry sumtimes coz it was dat someone who sent me tis song n this song, of coz, reminded me of him but watever!!!Me dun wanna talk or care bout tis matter no more....*smiles*

Wohoooo..on da 5th of march me, nina, my family, my sis's friends, my uncle n his friends are going cruising!!!weeee....can't wait sey...N u all noe wat??I've been playing pool for da last few days n it was soooo much fun!!!Ohhh, on wednesday ama sleep over Nina's place n we can watch movie n maybe go play pool again or go bowling!!!Ahhhhh i can't wait for my winter holiday to begin!!!

I hope i won't be sick coz now am having sorethroat n i noe tat tat's da signs of me having my asthma!!!!*panic*....I guess i gotta start eating my medicine khekhekhe...*yucks*...Nywayz...i gotta go continue figuring out my dumb, dumb blog!!!khekhekhe...will keep ya'll updated again!!!*muackz*

Spread ur wings n fly,Butterfly...

2005-02-20T18:52:00.000-08:00

Butterfly
When you love someone so deep
That they become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly, I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand, to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You've given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me
When you're ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

So flutter through the sky
Butterfly, fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Eh eh....wat a perfect song n lyric for moi!!!!Follow da song carefully...I've been trapping him under a glass coz i thought by doing tat i'm holding him by my side but i'm not!!I thought by doing tat i won't lose him ever but i guess i was wrong huh??..I noe tis song is like veli da emo but if u read da text while listening to da song, u'll agree with me tat tis song is veli meaningful..So now wat i ma do is juz let him fly like a butterfly n let him come back to me whenever he wanna n like in da song "if u shud return to me then we were truly meant to be.."..Of coz it hurts, of coz it's heart-breaking to noe tat he needs time off but i ma "stand here and say goodbye.." Well...,tat's juz da way it shud b, i guess...*smiles* This song is of coz dedicated to dat special HIM...

Oh gosh, Mariah has got lotsa good songs sey...her vocal...fuyooooo, veli powerful!!I realised tat throughout this whole song, she uses her inner voice...how power is tat??!!*jaws drops to da floor* khekhekhe...I simply love her!!One of my fav singer tau...Anywayz...thank GOD tat she sang this song n i found this song coz if not, i wud never understand this whole thing tat i'm going thru...*salutes mariah*

Okie dokie...wanna c sum of moi neoprint when i was on a holiday in sg??!! *jumps in joy*..ok, ok...here it goes.....weeeee.....

Moi n ma twin sister OK!!!khekhekhe...(before our hair-cut) Lup ya!!

Moi n moi beloved anak sedare!!!CUTIE sey!!khekhe

Lastly, moi n moi cheeky twin sis again!!khekhe (mcm real je..) This was after our sophisticated hair-cut khekhe...

See!!!Nice or not we all??!!...Finally i got to scan da pix...,all thanks to moi beloved pren, Ramou!!!Anywayz...,can u all see my transformation??!!khekhe...Well, didn't wanna cut my hair actually, but then my "private hair-consultant" who was my "twin sis" told me to, she forced me to cut it n told me tat i'll look like a star if i do it, so stupid n curious me, cut my hair wit her at simei!!!I forgotten da name of da shop dey khekhe...I liked da outcome tho khekhekhe...all thanks to my "twin sis"!!!!Weee....do we look like twins??!!Alot of moi frenny says we looked like twin khekhekhe..

I mish them sey...Da first time i saw her, i was sooo shocked coz she's changed, da way she dressed up n now she puts on make-up!!!*opened-mouth*....I still remembered when i walk thru dat door n she ran straight into da room khekhe...(she was paisey coz she was wearing her specs khekhe)...It was great..., we got to spend time wit each other!!!It's ok...,i'll b waiting for december (insyallah) if got enuff fulus, i ma get to see them again!!!Weeee...can't wait!!!mesti she change her hair-style oredi....Oklah, now nak kene kemas coz guest coming to da house!!! Weee...gonna have duck rice today tau....wohooo....duck rice, here comes dolly-tina!!!!

Weee...Am LoViNg ThIs SoNg!!!!

2005-02-19T18:24:00.000-08:00

Firstly, would juz like to say that finally after a loooonnnngggg holiday, my sis finally came online khekhekhe...yeapz, she got back from her holiday in erm.....sumwhere in Malaysia khekhekhe...She sent me thousands of pix n wow it was power sey...Especially da shopping mall!!!I miss going to those 4 stories shopping mall...u noe...those like Tampines Mall n yadeh, yadah...It's simply great coz there's lotsa diff shops n NEO-PRINT!!!!eeee.....wished they had those here too but apparently NOT coz they are all TOO narrow-minded khekhekhe...Gosh...they are such freakin boring peepz!!!Dun wanna try new ideas!!Ahhhh, forget bout these peepz...anywayz...i ma juz post sum pix onli coz did not ask my sis's permission lah...so here goes!!!

My sis, forcusing in da game khekhekhe...

tat's moi sister!!!n da beautiful, gorgeous shopping mall!!!

da shopping mall again khekhekhe...(miss da shopping mall lah!!)

moi sister (da picture freak..juz like her sister *ehem*)khekhe n her frenny!!!

Anywayz...now am soo stuck with this song khekhekhe...am loving it *cheeky laughs*...~"I like da way u walk, da way u talk, da way u smiles"~ Oh gosh..had spanish test next week!!!There are so many many, thousands, hundreds of new words to study..(ehem...am exaggerating, of coz khekhekhe)...I was memorizing all da spanish words a few minutes ago n guess wat i ended up doin??...I started making heart papers...khekhekhekhe....I made 5 of them but then 3 of them was kinda retarded n then finally da last two was a success....weeee *smiles*....Wohoo..., spring break is in one week n 1days to be exact khekhe...can't wait!!!I ma sleep n sleep n sleep lotsa sleep during da holidayz!!Eh...guess wat happened to my whole school on thursday??!!...*laughs out loud*...Me n sum of moi classmates was stucked in da computer lounge khekhekhe...we couldn't open da door coz da electricity door was fucked up n we were stucked there for like half an hour!!!!(we used those kinda doors which needs cards)Maylen, who was scared of being stucked in a room...erm, sum kinda forbia lah...was panicking n people outside da computer lounge like Kimone n Sooman, for e.g...., laughed at us (they meany!!) when we finally got outta room after like...FOREVER khekhekhe...but actually us, who got stucked in there was happy (not me) coz we get to miss biology class...but i wished i was in da biology class coz i LOVE biology but at da same time, it's great, being stucked in da computer lounge coz then i get to stay away from da dumb, dumb teacher khekhekhe....(i dun like her coz of sum past things that happend lah)...Ok, Ok...enough wit da things happening in school!!!

U noe..,nowadays i've been going home wit my mummy!!*weeeheee* Sumhow, it feels great to go home wit my mum coz we get our own little private conversation together..Oh...my mum told me lotsa things..n i never knew i didn't know so many things khekhe...n of coz me being da talkative girl, told my mum abt things happening in school lah n yadeh, yadah khekhe...It was juz great to be able to speak out to my mummy!!!khekhe!!

Woi, yesterday i slept over Ramou's place n Lillian oso came over!!It was juz great n perfect nite for us..We dance, chit-chat, eat together n lots more lah!!!I wanna do it again!!!N guess wat??!Ramou is moving back to New York!!!See!!!everytime da gang get new members, one of them will have to go abroad!!!!HOW SAD IS TAT????!!!!eeeee....HATE IT!!!

Now....lets face da outside world!!!There have been too many raping cases in da newspaper n now it's like "no biggy deal" to anyone huh??...Gosh, firstly!!GURLS out there...plz dun b stupid okie??...Oh gosh, tis thingy is making me sooo scared n sad..I'm really sorrie for those gurls yg kene rape..*cries* It could be me!!!(ya allah, jauhkan lah)...eeee, i'm even soo scared to even think of it....N for those disgusting, nasty, pervert, pathetic, no-life, nasty guyz out there!!!May u get da most painful punishment in HELL!!!!U're guyz r juz soo fucked up tat u guyz had to do these kinda things!!!GOD is GREAT n he ain't blind so watever u do to sumone here, u'll get 100 times worst treatment from sum others n more worst from GOD, himself!!!!Think before u act plz!!!

GrEaTeSt NeWs Of ThEm AlL!!!!

2005-02-15T20:13:00.000-08:00

Weeeee...dolly veli hyper and happy today!!Got da greatest news today and at first i thought it was a joke but it's true!!!!!*jumps in joy*..*sings* ~u Can't hurry love..oh...u juz have to wait..singing, love dun come easy, it's a game of give and take~...weee i love dat song now..my anthem for da week!!!Ok, Ok...after listening to tat song, i realise tat i can't hurry love n can't give up soo easily like wat i'm doing...I noe i was in denial before coz i was trying to act tough n pretend that i didn't missed him but u noe wat??!!Now i ma tell da whole world that I LOVE n I MISS HIM sooooooooo Muchie!!!I hope he's feeling da same way as i am...n i hope tat his feelings for me will never end..Yipeeee!!!!

khekhekhe...memories!!!I Love hIm,mY cuzzy n BrO!!Yiiiiiihaaaa...LoL

Ok, Ok!!!Enough wit that!!!Now i bet ya'll are wondering wat da greatest news is but i'm sorry kawan2, i won't tell u all until i think it's da rite time to shout it out to da world!!*my mouth is really itchy now* LoL..i'm being too excited as though i am da one facing n having it khekhekhe but it's okie...i'm still happy n really overjoyed!!!weeeeheeee.....can't wait!!!ARGH!!I miss my eldest sister in sg...dah lame sey die tak call or come online...mane aje si dekni pergi??pergi holiday tak ingatkan adik die khekhekhe....Weeee..., (insyallah) my eldest sister is coming over to Sweden this Summer..*can't wait* Weeee...i really can't wait lah!!Actually i mish all her naggingz, when i get to lay down on her lap n she pull out all da pimples i had khekhekhe,when she asked me to do sumthing she's supposed to do (n me being da nice one,always does it for her)khekhekhe...ahhh basically i juz simply mish her lotz..can't wait to see her again!!

dats mua n mi beloved sister!!!I mish her sooo much!!

Well, anywayz....guess wat i ma do tis weekend??!!...I'm going to a Valentine's party Kimone's siszy organized!!!Ohhh, can't wait sey...me n kimone going, of coz khekhekh....n guess who we gonna see??!!This HOTz latino guy!!!!We used to have a damn BIG crush on him!!Damn, dat guy is reallllll damn hot!!!n I mean realllll HOT!!!U'll catch on fire when u see him khekhekhekhe...hey, juz an old crush kiez...ain't no playa coz am still loving my aLfIaN khekhe....Wohooooo, can't wait til tis weekend n next HOLIDAY!!!!n ismael having a b'day party!!Weeeee..busy,busy,busy gurl i am khekhekhe..PARTY,PARTY n PARTY!!!Yipeee...

Oh shit..now i'm left wit 2 hours to study for my biology test n do my spanish n history homework!!!aiyoh...u noe wat??!!da spanish teacher veli da annoying tau...,can't tahan her one...~haiz~evryday oso got homework n new words to study...ouuu wanna teach ya'll sumthing in spanish??!!But jgn say it to spanish people tau khekhekhe...nanti mampos kene sepak...LoL...ok,ok...here's da word...To a gurl it's "hija de puda" n for a boy kan it's "hijo de puda"...khekhekhe...won't tell u all wat it means lah..go find out urself heheh...Tat's all folks!!Buh bye!!!*muackz*

Ok cyg...,this song is for ya!!!Listen to da lyrics kiez??....Yeapz, i like da way u talk to me, da way u laughs, da way u smoke, da way ya kiss meeh, da way u put ur cap on, da way u used to kiss me on my forehead n basically the way u do evrything!!!When i tell my gurls tat u're in sg,they'll tell me to stay away from ya coz u might b cheating but i juz noe i can trust ur loyalty n trust n i simply like them!!!These are simply da reasons why i fell in love wit ya n am still is!!!weeee...*muackz n hugz for HIM*

Happy Valentine's Day keng kawan!!!

2005-02-14T13:10:00.000-08:00

aiyoh...Happy Valentine's Day cemua!!!Those who have a partner to celebrate Valentine's Day with then lucky for ya but those single peepz out there who dun have a partner, dun juz sit home n cry over ur lost one or ur x...Go out or juz have fun u noe!!Wat's da point of ya crying over spilt milk huh??No point ok??so instead or berjiwang2 kat umah, do sumthing fun..call ur friend over to ur place to chit-chat or watch movies or cook together or go out to town!!!

Of coz it's a great oppurtunity to get to celebrate ur Valentine's Day wit ur bf/gf but it's not only on Valentine's Day tat u can celebrate..in fact, evryday oso can be valentine's day as long as u have ur love ones by ur side. Eh valentine's day not only for bf/gf k!! It's also for ur family, people ard u tat u love!!!Dun have to express urself or tell them only on Valentine's Day tat u love them.., tell them EVERY SINGLE DAY...in fact, tell them every single seconds coz u might never know when u gonna lose them..*winkz*

To all my friendz, those who r still close to me, those who i barely noe but juz by bloghopping, those whom i juz said "hi" once, to all my ex boyfriends(God noes how many of them there is), those whom i juz smiled to, those who used to be my buddy n basically evrybody lah!!!HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY n dolly loves ya!!!*muackz* n a special happy valentine's day to Nina,Lillian,Ramo,Kimone,Fatou,Maylen,my family *think to myself*..who am i forgetting here?? I lovee ya'll sooo much n i dunno wat i would do without ya'll in mua life!!Weeeheeee

Nywayz...,my kawanz coming over soon khekhekhe...see!!I'm not crying over spilt milk, i'm progressing, i've tried my best but it wouldn't work n u juz dun want it to work, i guess so i ma juz quit n move on wit life coz i dun wanna waste my time no more, i'm trying to have fun instead of crying myself out til i go blind....I ma juz take wat ALLAH has got for me in line *jumps n sings my song* weeeee...another 55 mins til my friends datang, i hope they come at 2pm coz dolly lom abis kemas agi khekhekhe..(lom abis kemas, sempat nak post eh..)khekhekhe...

hmmmmmmm is tis all i wanna say??.....*thinking real hard*....erm..,hmm...yea...tat's all folks khekhekhe...Love ya'll..for those of u who reads my personal blog...I love u tooz tho i dunno who u are but i still love ya'll khekhekhe...k,k,k buh bye!!!!!~dolly outta here~

not forgetting...dolly will jot down my love for all of u in da THICK,THICK snow on da ground outside my house kiez??khekhkehkeh...

Weeee,Valentine besok!!!!khekhekhe

2005-02-13T11:55:00.000-08:00

woiiiii besok Valentine's Day sey!!!!!So excited..for wat also i dunno khekhekhe....School half day tomorroz!!no actually i only go to school for one lesson khekhe...(pathetic kan??yea...i noe)...Tomorrow ama celebrate Valentine wit my keng kawan since i got no date for Valentine's day!!!Weeeee....*waiting impatiently* nuthing special lah...juz sit home, watch sum movies n chit-chat...khekhekhe....

Aiyoh...when i woke up tis morning, my dad open da curtain or watever u call them khekhe n guess wat i saw??!!!SNOW!!!!N i mean real HEAVY snow..., thick snow on da ground!!!Been lotsa accident on da news coz of da snow...I thought da stupid winter was over and was sooo overjoyed to wear skirts to school n sit by da beach and eat ice-cream n chit-chat...Now see wat snow did to my plan!!!ARGH!!I'm getting sick n tired of snow now khekhekhe...but at da same time..,it's soooo beautiful n now i can't wait to play snowball n make snowman khekhekhe (like a child pulak)....

Anywayz.., semalam Ramo came over to my place to do da English essay coz she didn't understand it...cheyyyy....der goes dolly-tina, being da best teacher khekhe..(ohh,dream on gurl) khekhe...Da study hours turned out perfect, u noe...then after awhile we chatted abt lotsa things...So u noe.., dolly-tina started all her grandmother stories n Ramo, being da best listener listened to all my stories...n she also started to tell me her stories n gosh!!I never knew tat there was sumone else out der who was feeling da same way i was...n it's like, i can juz tell her anything n she will juz have da answer for it!!I really love her for tat!!!N guess wat??!!For da first time ever I prayed wit one of my friend in Sweden...very shocking n strange for me lah coz i never pray wit sumone from another country...Well...actually dolly didn't wanna pray..(eee, notti dolly!!biase die!!)...but eventually i did khekhe...It was sooo much fun n i really felt a relief coz at least we have sumthing in common n when i need a listening ears, i can go to her..(i hope) kehkhekhe...So she went back at around 9 sumthin n Ramo, we shud do more of tis kiez??...Really had fun tho it wasn't sumthing big...

I'm watching snow white now...eh not da cartoon version..,it's da film version lah...da snow white is sooo beautiful..alah..da gurl from smallville..ape name die??Lana..Lane or watever her name is khekhe...I like tat gurl, she sooo sweet n i found out dat she's a mix of indonesian, chinese n sumthing sumthing else lah...fuyooo, betulnye lotsa mix in her blood...Owww..da movie is sooo nice..i wish i could be snow white..i wish my prince charming would come to me n recue me from this evil stepmother of mine khekhe...*fantasizing n smiling to myself*...Nywayz, since it's Valentine tomorroz i ma change my song to this song n dedicate it to HIM, I mish him soo much but i guess i juz have to be patient n pray hard to ALLAH...I noe he will help me n make my dream come true one day n i noe dat he is always watching me n i noe tat he is not blind...I will also do my part in tis..,i will put in as much effort as i can to make US work n will not juz let u go easily coz i truly love ya..I will pray for US evrday, evry minute n seconds..I love ya b and Happy Valentine's Day!!!!*muackz*

Us...I love him!!!

LiFe is like a box of chocolate...

2005-02-05T13:41:00.000-08:00

Wooo..changed my song..veli da nicey n feminine *winkz* khekhekhe..Juz had my breakfast n now i ma blog n after tat gonna go study...*innocent smiles*hehehhe....Yea,STUDY...Gonna b da good, innocent gurl for once!!Well...yesterday i went to a cafe to "fika" wit my sister n sum other friendz of hers..I saw da most beautiful crystal ring EVA in Thomas Sabo!!!Da crystal was pink n it was BEAUTIFUL!!!It costed 3000kr n i ma ask my hubby to buy it khekhekhe...(like he got da money to buy it... khekhe)..Well,i ma juz keep on thinking bout my hubby getting me da ring khekhe...

juz LOOK at da ring bebeh!!!it's a PURE beauty!!u guyz dun like it??well..too bad,I LOVE IT!!!(it looks better in real life)

Anywayz..I must admit tat i really enjoyed it tho i thought it wud b as boring as ever khekhe...We really talked bout lotsa stuff n it really got me thinking bout life n my future..As u guyz can see from my title, life is like a box of chocolate coz u'll never noe wat's gonna happen next n all u gotta do is be prepared for watever tat is coming ur way..

My Future
The discussion we had yesterday opened up my thinking for my future..As u guyz noe, i wanna migrate to da states and study law and of coz be a lawyer..Being a lawyer is not about da money..(well..,yea of coz,da money is GOOD..)But for me, being a good lawyer is all about knowing how to fight for ur rights and ur client's rights..It is a great passion for me n it's not becoz of people saying tat i'll get rich out of it but it's because I love defending people (n tat is if they in da right side) and I love to noe how the law is but at da same time, being a lawyer is hard coz it's not as open as doing bussiness..Wat i'm trying to say is, u have to really, really be sure tat u wanna stay in dat ONE country forever, as a Lawyer..And IF u decide to migrate or sumthing, u can't be known as a lawyer in dat new country coz evry country have different laws rite??Yea, of coz u can study law in dat country again but u noe life is too short for tat..HEY, dun get me wrong...if being a lawyer is a great passion for u then go on but tis is for my own thoughts n my own future..Yea..,da conversation yesterday made me think about this..yes, of coz i wanna b a lawyer but for now.., it's kinda like....50/50 of me studying law in da states..But anywayz...,we'll see wat happens next..By da way, i've still got 2 n a half more years to decide wat i wanna study in U...and keng kawan..,fikir masak2 bout ur future coz it's gonna b wit ya for a very long time...

Love
Anywayz, i had a conversation wit my baby boo da other day n he asked me all sorts of questions n when i think of it.., I dunno if it's gonna happen coz we can make plans but only ALLAH will decide to make our plans come true..
Yes, i wanna settle down in Singapore again n yes, i wanna b wit him again but all these are juz plans n i dun even noe if its gonna come true..My mom always told me tat..,studies comes first and family comes next n then ur bf/gf ..Yes, studies are important for me coz i need it for my future n u r important for me too coz without da strenght of u n my family, i wouldn't b able to stand up n go thru tis cruel,cruel world...I dun even noe whether we will last or maybe u're juz another lover who will break my heart, sumday..I dunno alot of stuff, it's juz soo confusing n soo many questions left blank...I'm not saying tat my love for u is untrue, I noe damn rite, deep,deep in my heart tat i truly love u n if i can, i wanna spend da rest of my life wit u but i dunno...It's difficult for me to say since we're miles and miles apart from each other and u noe tat it's confusing too..Sumtimes,i juz wonder why does it have to be soo hard but tis is not wat we got from ALLAH..tis is sumthing we knew but we chose to be in tis situation...Sumtimes i think tat it's better for us to go our seperate ways but I juz can't let u go easily coz I love u n it really hurts for me to noe tat it is gonna be like tis..I put on a happy face evryday n when people ask how my boo was, all i cud say was..he's fine,thx....n when they ask me how can we do it..all i cud say was..,we make each other strong n go thru tis together... but it is true tat we're making each other strong becoz i dun think i'm strong enough to make it thru tis coz i've been thru it once n if i can, i dun wanna go thru it again...especially not wit da guy whom i love most...da first guy who ever gave me my first real kiss, da guy who taught me abt life in a different perspective..I juz can't...Baby, dun get me wrong, i still wanna be together wit u but all i'm saying is it's hard n it hurts soo much...I LOVE YA!!!I will really pray hard...,pray tat we can make tis last....

Now c wat i mean??!!Looks tempting on da outside but u'll never noe!!..(ouu now i wanna eat chocolate khekhekhe)

Now ya'll noe why i'm saying tat life is like a box of chocolate coz we choose to do everything in life..Well..,yea of coz, sumtimes u have no choice..it's like when there's only one chocolate left in da box n u have to finish up da last piece..but i guess tat juz da way it is huh??..Well, i guess eventhough u dun like da chocolate u still gotta eat it up rite..Well..,i guess tats juz life..u've gotta b strong n gotta move on n try to live da dayz coz life is too short.. *winkz*

pIx FrOm a very special moment!!!

2005-02-02T01:08:00.000-08:00

Weeee!!!Today my mummy nye b'day n my bro made his of coz, special, veli da nice Tiramisu..*yum yum*...n I made grilled, 2 hours marinated salmon!!!Oh gosh....went around my school's neighbourhood juz to catch hold of da salmon..(P.S:here veli da hard to find fish n it's *beep* expensive man!!khekhe)..Anywayz, got home n "fought" wit da fish for 30 mins(since i've never cleaned fishes before hehe) but i got thru it nyways!!So yea, da b'day dinner thingy went well n evrybody liked my Salmon!!!(am proud of miself!!)And I felt like i ate tons of food but it's ok...,it's only for today kan??!!Yea, of coz lah khekhekhe...

Ohhhh, new news....Lil ngan me tak talking to each other nymore!!!Arghhh...,ok fine, it wasn't my fault n there ain't no way i ma say sorrie coz i didn't do nuthin...but it annoys me to see us seperate like tat but since she wants it tat way so she's gonna get it lah...Hey!!ain't talking bad bout her n i ain't gonna tell ya'll wat happens coz it's kinda personal n yadeh, yadah lah khekhekhe...but eventhough we not talking to each other,...i still love her as much as i love Nina n da rest!!!!Never forget tat Lil!!!

Anywayz...,as ya'll can see my title!!!Let's get into da time machine n recap alil bit..Recap to da special day when da PreIBitches was all alone at Fatou's place for a goodbye party/sleepover or watsoever u call it kheekhe...Well, actually i got da pix like for a long time ago but only tat i was sooo lazy to post it lah khekeh...sorrie k all my blogreader!!!...Now here goes my story for dat very special day....

straight into da kitchen for da cooking!!(i was cooking n taking da pix, of coz)*DUH*

having our special dinner together!!!n Fatou feeling alil bit toooooo comfortable khekhekhe!!!

da charlie's angels...having their lil break *LoL*...(dun disturb,we bite!!)

Lil n me,of coz!!!Loveeee ya!!!

Kimone n sumone playing cathing khekhe n me....being a maniqueen!!!WEeee

Ouuuuu da two sexy mama sitazzzz(hot in herre)...P.S:my face ah veli oily...if u dunno why then it's coz....i've been infront of da damn stove!!!DUH!!)

Okie.....i got more pix n if u wanna see, click here OK!!!But for now...WAKE UP!!!*slaps ur face wit da fish*...R u guyz awake now??GOODD!!!...

Well...,now back to 2005 oki??!!khekhekhe...sorrie ya peepz,no pix taken on my mom's b'day lah...but nywayz hope u all enjoyed my pix n will update more, i guess..*winkz*...Buh Byeeee*kish kish*

Aiyoh,fucking fucked up blog i have!!!

2005-01-26T20:10:00.000-08:00

okie...I'm so fucked up wit my fucking blog since it is soooo fucked up and soo fucking slow!!!Gosh,i dunno wats wrong wit it??!!It's always pissing me off n it never wanna work wit me...khekhekhe...Anywayz, i ma juz take tis stupid matter off my chest, for now..*weee*...Oh well, school was da same n it was great tooz..Juz any other normal day for me but the thing that makes da day extra perfect was tat it snowed!!!I felt like i was in one of those movies,u noe...It feels like u're in heaven wit ur loved ones,enjoying da perfect weather (tho it's cold) but it's juz great!!!....

Well, i stayed in school until 5 pm wit Nina juz now, to do my biology n english assignment..Oh, i'm sooo proud of myself coz i'm getting better in spanish khekhekhe...(now can go to spain n speak spanish to all da papi chulo out there huh??)..khekhekhe...Weeee, i'm starting to enjoy da spanish klaz now n as usual, dOlLy-TiNa juz loves da camera!!!!So yea when da teacher was teaching us sumthing...me n Nina wasn't listening but was busy taking pictures khekhe(only one day lah)...but hey we managed to dig out da sumthings we missed from Kimone...Kimone,...aiyoh..,she veli da clever u noe!!She used to b my best friend but now kinda like....., seperated but still close to each other lah....She got A+ in 10 subjects *fuyoooo,i wished i got tat much*....Well,..i noe i can get tat far if i really devote myself in studies...*dolly have to do better next term kiez...*

der u go....dolly-tina in Maylen's hat,smiling for da cammy heheh...

n tak miss one pic wit her!!..Love her sooo much...(can u c kimone kat blakang??she's sitting rite behind Nina...love her tooz)...

Anywayz....u noe wat happen in school for da past few days??!!RUMOURS!!!RUMOURS!!!abt me!!!!....They all keep saying i was a whore lah....Tis guy told one person abt me fucking sumone n then tat one person tells another n u noe lah....spread ard veli veli fast!!!ArGh!!!very pissed off wit these people...Okie fine...,lets say if tat is true..(example je tau!!!tak true!!)So wat if i fucked him??!!Even if i did n told u guyz tat it's true...wat do u wanna do abt it??!!!...Why so keypoh one huh??Why wanna noe abt people's bussiness??!!AND WHY MAKE UP STUPID RUMOURS???!!!No Life kinda peepz!!!Go get or find a damn life for fuck sake!!!Then when u found ur life then come to me n talk to me coz all these things dun upset me but juz makes me reallll bitchy n mad!!!if u guyz even noe who i am, u guyz will noe wat dOlLy-TiNa can do to u peepz when things like tis happens!!!!!REMEMBER...."wat goes around comes around bebeh!!!"

Ahhh....irritating peepz in my school!!Nywayz...weeee talked to baby juz now!!soooo good to hear his voice again...(trime kacih lil for da card u let me use to call him!!)It felt sooo good to hear his voice!!Kecian cygku..die have skul n work in one day...hav to wake up soo early to go to skul n then off to werk...dOlLy pity my baby n am missing him tooz...oh yea..talking bout stress day n abt skul n werk in one day...my mom pon have to do da same thing like ayg....oh gosh,i relly pity both of them!!!ayg, dun stress too much kiez?? nanti sakit ayg!!n mummy tooz....nanti sakit tau.. next week gonna grow one year older!!!!(must stay healthy mummy)..Weeee....guess wat??!!yesterday one month, me n baby together..(ok nuthing big but watever)khekhekhe...n u noe wat me n my siblings gonna do on my mummy's b'day??...we gonna make a special dinner for her n my bro is gonna make his special TIRAMISU!!!*wohoooo*...oklah...now nak tgk top model3...aiyoh,i missed 9 mins of it..cannot miss nymore!!Love n miss ya'll....n oh yea,eza sweetie,hope u feeling much better n nana, hope ur mum's feeling much better n kecik, dolly m sooo happy tat life's soo much better for u n all da others I LOVE YA!!! P.S:baby,i dedicate tis songie for ya...*muackiezzz* khekhekhe

wohooo...LeT's ReCaP da dayz!!!AlL da way to MayLeN's PaRtY!!!

2005-01-23T16:21:00.000-08:00

weee....got sum pictures from Maylen a few weeks ago...It's da pix from her b'day party n i dun wanna post all lah coz u noe....censored cikit khekhekhe....I t's been really great celebrating her b'day wit da gang but it's such a shame tat 3 of them had to go abroad coz of sum family bussiness *sob* but watever it is they will still be our PreIBganG!!!Miz them tho...well, juz wanna tell u guyz wat happened on Li's party khekhekhe...Yeapz,i went to Li's party n i noe it's alil' bit too backdated but watever!!!Well, his party was basically GREAT!!!!They had cakes, SUSHI *yum yum* (da best sushi ever!!!)...music n da dancefloor, of coz!!!...Wohooo...we danced all nite long but da sad thing is tat we did not take as much pix as we did at Maylen's party...Da party went soo smoothly n one of our gang member was flirting wit is chinese girl he liked but then the party suddenly went kinda bad when Maylen got drunk but Li was prepared for tat so he gave Maylen sum chinese tea to sober her up then juz when Maylen was about to be "normal"....Sooman got drunk so we had to take care of him too n make him sober n then when Sooman was still tipsy, guess who got drunk??!!(well, actually not drunk but tipsy ok!!)So yea...Li was worried...and he had to end his party (guess wat time it was??!!9)..9??!!!Tat's when da party starts!!!!n we, da PreIBganG had to go home khekhekhe...Well, der u go....alil detail bout wat had happened in tis crazy PARTY!!!ok,ok enuff wit da "party story"...Now here comes da pixies!!!

weee...yea shake tat ass Tina khekhekhe...(tis is juz da start!!)

Yea,evrybody in da club juz throw ur hands up for me!!!LoL...

wah!!Ismael veli lucky eh??4 gurlz sey!!Yea shake tat ass for Dr Black gurlzz!!khekhekhe

weee dolly-tina n Dr Black going down to da floor sey!!!...(P.S:sempat aku smile for da cam!!)

N lastly...Happy B'day MayLeN!!!WEEEEEEE

So there u go...alil piece of my memory from Maylen's party!!!Wohoo!!!Anywayz...,have been staying home again da whole day n maybe later on, in da day, we gonna watch sum movie my dad burned *yipeee*....I tink it's dodgeball or sumthin...entahlah...khekhekhe...Weiii,besok skola!!Stress week, here dolly comes khekhekhe....Well, tadi chat ngan cyg n i asked him whether he's serious in tis long-dist re n he told me tat he dunno n i was kinda upset when he said tat but after talking to Nina n thinking bout da situation, i thought to myself tat juz becoz he dunno da answer,tat doesn't mean it's the end of us n it doesn't mean tat he dun love me..maybe cyg is juz confused n no matter wat kan b...my love for u will alwayz remain, deep in my heart n noone will ever b able to replace it..Love ya!!....